Here I Am

Ah me. Sometimes I'm so sad, as the waves carry me so far from any shore and I shake my head and say, "I thought that if I just flow with the currents, they would lead me to the right place. I thought that if I lift my paddle and let wiser rowers stern the canoe, we'd steer ourselves to just the right island". Seems I was just abandoning my post. Sad. Alone at sea, no shore in sight. Just drift now. Just drift and hope, drift and hope, drift and hope.

And sleep right, eat right, get strong again.

Creating My Perfect BodySoulMindHeart

We beginigin.
I will eat perfectly today,
mind this vessel
entrusted to my keeping.
Who is the "I",
who will mind this vessel?
My I-ness fills every corner,
yes, your I-ness,
we will keep you fit
so that you can do your work
in this world.

TGIF

cerealmilk candy, taste of cake papaya salmon, pistachios plums pretzels 1600
stop now, or I need to invite a dieting companion.

Tradition Starts Here

Remind me to tell you about a delightful wedding in the Biblical Landscape, among fig trees and pomegranate trees, and words from the Song of Songs.
Remind me to tell you of the similarities between our Canadian family and our Israel family, how we reinvent tradition, ancient murmurings revisited with a delight in today's new thought.
oatbran-flax-wild oats-fibre one cereal and 1% milk
cherry tomatoes, cottage cheese with fruit slices, corn on cob, tofu sticks.
Done til a lean Friday supper. Promise.
too much sashimi of salmon and tuna in a chirashi bowl with avocado and rice, all good but much. Then 1/4 corn cob at friends'. 2200 but healthy food at least.

For Beauty, For Energy, For Me

Self-indulgent, but a celebration of this body and this energy and this youthful 57 year old. This week I'll write what I eat: lean protein, and Israel's bounteous fruits and vegetables. Even at the wedding of Erez and Chani tonight (Erez is Shlomit and Dani Karmi's son, one of the twins named for the trees that thrive in their garden, planted at their birth. And Erez grew the flowers for tonight's wedding.
good coffee so far, 10:15 fibre 1 and 1% milk --(I will always report the cumulative calories of the day so far, very inaccurate and unresearched, but the reporting keeps me on track. The key is to satisfy all hunger, making good choices. To feel marvelous and vibrant at all times. To have the right energy for the joy of living. Right energy! Yes!
--700 now, after steaming miso soup with tofu cubes, and a pure salad of sunflower sprouts, alfalfa sprouts, cabbage and one perfect cherry tomato.
Good so far.
pear, apricot and grapefruit sweet wedding, ate right: 1 small slice beef, fish, salad, 2 apples 1800. Great day. Yay!

Shabbat quiet

working on Maszlow's hierarchy, and the pay yourself first philosophy, borrowing from the top of the pyramid daily. 2 eggs, potato onion oil salad orange yoghurt and apple apple 850

10 sensations a day

10 sensations:
1. many turquoises of the sunlit sea this morning.
2. waves
3. sweet boa around my new hat, for the Chabad wedding
4. all the papaya mango mandarine colours of our bed and towels.
5. green tea with nana in the morning
6. mad about unscheduled time. Must make my own schedule. so much I could be accomplishing. hate the looseness. Tight schedules from now on. I can self-impose. The key is not to explore what lures me again and again into unstructured, wasted days. Key is to schedule and stick to the schedule. I hate blurs.
Okay: do it now:
9:42 - 10:30 sort and list
10:30 bank
11:30 phone Briut misrad
organize documents for translation, get approved.
2 eggs cerealflaxoatbranmilk cuke chicken nuts corn
mad at not working, making money, at this age. very mad at this. So do something. What?
need a TaDa list
today:
nothing so far. busy, and nothing.

joining Bitsy at BootyCamp

Okay, the swim to Bitsy's Booty Camp may be more than I'm ready for, so I'll just use the Netanya beach and promenade as my Booty Camp, and I'll run and bike to fitness with you Bits.
1 tiny cup Turkish coffee, and 3 big mugs of my beloved and famous hot water with a drop of good coffee.
1 pomelit (a sweet fragrant Beit Alfa grapefruit)
1/2 orange, slice melon, and 2 strawberries - in Israel these all have a fragrance and taste straight from the Garden of Eden.
eggs, 1 tsp olive oil ....... 500 calories so far,
and all accepted foods.
We'll try eating to appetite, but only foods on the list: you know the list - vegetables, fruits, lean protein, whole grains. Ancient foods, none of the newfangled concoctions of this crazy "civilized" world.
So far so good.
1 banana, 1 persimmon, after a long long bike ride, past surfers and parasailors, people strolling and sitting in the beachside cafes.
edameme, chicken, apple, little pear 1000 now
more edameme and chicken --- 1500
Shabbes dinner without Adam. Who knows what his Friday night looks like, a couple of the guys saying a quiet prayer, mouthing a song or two?
salmon filet, yellow peppers, stew of squash, sweet potato, zucchini.
A good day, totally whole foods in natural state. mmmmmmmmmmm
41 to go til my flight.

Ah! I can breathe!

Woke up happy. Adam is fine. You sense a child who is far away, the way you sense him in the womb. There was a bikeriding moment yesterday, when I pictured Adam in that famous jumping picture, and I stopped my bike by the sea, and me and the wind just panted and panted, deep, and suddenly the breathing reminded me of labour. Adam is fine.

Sensational

This one is for me. The self indulgent one. The page that lets me spill onto it, clash, cry, delight, ramble. This one is the food diary, the sensations diary, the one that helps me know where I am.
In 42 days I'll fly to Canada. I'll try to record the days.